oh death
nice to see u
I’ve got issues with this thing we all have to do at some point and I am assuming you do too. I also bet that you have your own ideas and theories about it.
For whatever reason lately, I have been fixating on the process of death and what it will mean, and feeling a fair bit of frustration at not being able to be chill and alright with it. I am so not a meditating calm person about this. I am for better or worse a rage against the dying of the light type person, and I’ve had to face the fact that accepting defeat is wildly enraging. I’m like, mad at death. I guess its a phase. So sue me.
sorry death. nothing personal, you just really annoy me.
Did you happen to watch Alien Earth? I did. I love the Alien/Predator franchise; more on that another time. The reason I bring it up is because in Alien Earth a wealthy Elon like billionaire comes up with a way to transfer human consciousness into a robot. Sounds sketchy, because of the billionaire part. In the show, it does not go well. That guy can’t have good intentions. But the general idea? I mean, there are a million things I want to do. If my body was not getting older and more annoying I would sign up for endless more years on this magical and horrific planet in a body that does not age. I find myself looking at my checklist and desperately wanting to achieve, see, feel and taste as much as possible “before I die.”
Is that messed up?
I don’t know.
What it does make me realize is how much I appreciate being alive. Its the most fantastic trip, with limits. It is also absolutely hellish. And sometimes the idea of moving forward into other realms which are hopefully more evolved sounds refreshing.
But its scary ok? What the hell happens?
Does anyone think they know?
This post has a request. Please comment with your thoughts, ideas, and fears about death. Religion? I want to hear about it. Heaven? No heaven? We become dirt? Share it. Dark humor is welcomed and encouraged. I have ideas that I entertain daily, but I always land on a solid “I have no idea we’ll just have to wait and see” mentality.
What I do know, is that in order to survive this uncertainty and not lose my shit is that I must do the following things.
Be present and enjoy EVERYTHING as much as possible.
Be creative about what death might be and entertain that it might not be as terrible as you thought.
Laugh all the fucking time about how insane it is that we exist.
Death is definitely happy to chill with us too. I welcome your thoughts.
bye